I realized how much I love him during this trip. I could connect myself so much more to him. I dreamed about him twice during the trip. Is that a message? Dreaming about Kaká is something I could only concrete once.

The first dream was on Saturday: I was in a stage, and was winning a prize, the I had win the “Queen of”…something I can’t remember, lol. I was with my classmates on the stage. I remember thanking some people for the prize, but in a moment I said in English (the whole dream was in Spanish, lol): “But I want to give the biggest thanks to my boyfriend, Brandon Flowers”. *Haha yeah keep dreaming, Honey!*. Then Brandon came and we kissed, lol. Yeah that part can be ignored, just a fangirl dream. Later, he sang a song in that stage: Read My Mind by The Killers (duh!). Curiously, I knew inconciently the whole song in the dream (thing that had never happened to me lol); an a phrase in the song says “teenage queen”… reminds something? LOL.
The second one was past night, but it was kind of sad. I got rejected for the fanlisting for Brandon Flowers (I didn’t even get a rejection email), and a person I know got it. I felt pretty bad, I am afraid I was kind of jealous, because that person already owns a big wishlister I had been rejected for in the past. I think I said enough *blush*. I was very, very, very sad and disappointed, to be honest. I didn’t give up on my fandom, though, and expanded my physical fanlisting for him in a mini fansite.

I just hope I can add the officially listed at TFL fanlisting for him on that fansite I hope to do. I love Brandon Flowers, a lot. His voice is extremly ‘attractive’, and he’s an excellent musician (as vocalist and as a keyboardist). Glam, glam and more glam. Or I should say Brandon, Brandon and more Brandon? ;) I wish I could express my love for him in a more effective way than a blog entry; I hope a fansite (this case it would be a fanlisting-fansite, HOPEFULLY) can show it.

EDIT 13th JANUARY 2007: I realized I can’t wait long. I will start building the fan site tonight. My love for Brandon is very intense, I need to show it, and being honest, I can’t wait to know if I am approved to run the fanlisting or not (I’ll keep praying that I am! It’s one of my kill-for fanlistings, as you may have already noticed!). In case I am approved, I’ll merge all sites in the fansite, if not, I’ll not only be depressed for weeks (perhaps months), but I will keep showing my love for him on the site. I am thinking about purchasing a domain name, too, I’ll have to talk with my money provider (*cough*dad*cough*) about it, lol. However, I read that if you really want a fanlisting, you will eventually get it (IE, my Kaká fanlisting - though it took like two years lol).